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dari dulu sebenarnya saya suka menulis..tapi terkadang suka malu karena isinya..iya terkadang terlalu gamang..terlalu ekspresif..but to tell you the truth i have my moment...maksudnya ada saat dimana apa yang ada di kepala saya dengan mudah dapat dituangkan ke dalam tulisan..sebelum saya nge-blog di sini saya suka menulis di notes facebook...tapi sih pada waktu itu masih pengen ada yang baca..tapi sekarang seiiring bertambahnya usia hal ingin dibaca tidaklah penting..lebih ke saya menulis karena ingin menulis..sama sekali gk kepikiran dengan nulis nambah follower di twitter terus jadi buzzer produk..gk kok..saya menulis karena saya suka lupa..iya semoga dengan menulis ada catatan mengenai kehidupan saya dan siapa saya..nilai2 yang saya pegang...dapat menjadi rekam jejak supaya jika nanti angin kehidupan membuat saya kehilangan arah..saya tidak lupa..atau setidaknya ada pengingatnya...dan dalam kesempatan ini saya ingin share tulisan2 saya di notes facebook jauh sebelum saya mulai ngeblog ini...saya coba pilih yang menurut saya bagus..yang mewakili gw banget...kalo mau baca lengkap harus friend dulu di facebook sama follow di twitter (wupoikiiii!!!..pembohong)..gk ding cuma becanda kok..so lets take a trip down in memory lane :

keterangan biar gk bingung saya memakai tinta yg berbeda ya

Ini ditulis 5 oktober 2010, tentang harapan alias Hope :

"have your heard a story about some Greek mythology called the Pandora Box, a story about Zeus trying to punish mankind because of Promotheus stealed his fire, then Zeus try to trick mankind by give them a gift in form of a woman called Pandora, with Pandora also the Gods provide with a box contains various gift from various Gods with a message not to open the box ever. And like any other gift Pandora makes man happy with his beautiful voices, pretty face and all what goodnes has to offer to mankind, but as time passes Pandora became more and more curious why the Gods wont let her open the box, and every time its like there are voices asking Pandora to open the box, even she tried to bury the box, but still the curiosity over power her. Then she open the box just to peek whats inside then from inside the box came out all sort of things, and at the time Zeus plan is coming to play, from the box came out feelings of grief, sadness, regret, hate, and all sort of negative feeling. Mankind started to blame each other, become sad when things went wrong, unbareable grief when losing someone, and after that the world wasn't the same again, mankind felt desperate and the world seems to be a sinister place. Zeus is vey happy and at last he can fulfill his vengeance, but little did he knows that Hera, his wife also slip something to the box and it hasn't come out yet. Meanwhile Pandora cried in regret, blaming herself for all the bad things happen to mankind, as she cried, she heard voice telling her to open the box one more time, and as she did that, came out another feeling and it's called Hope, and then Hope saves the day by giving mankind what to look for in the future, how to restore faith, to mend broken heart, to handle grief, become the light in the darkness hour, and overcome despeation time.

Cause you see that hope is a good thing  and maybe the best thing, and good thing isn't suppose to die. With all the bad things happening right now with hope there's always a chance to turn the tide. Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out."

Gimana..gimana bagus gk...:)

Nah yg ini ditulis gara2 baca quotes-nya Marlyn Monroe tanggal 29 Juli 2011 monggo

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."  -  Marilyn Monroe

things happen, dan terkadang kita gak bisa milih baik atau buruk, dari kecil kita belajar berdiri, belajar jalan, belajar ngomong, belajar jahit, belajar ngomong bahasa inggris, belajar pake mesin cuci, masak di kompor listrik( ini belajar jadi TKI ya??!!), dan terkadang kita dipaksa untuk melakukan hal2 yg belum tentu kita suka, dulu teringat ketika masih kecil didandanin pake baju tentara buat difoto pas natalan dengan kancing atas terbuka (ini mah aib ya..hadewh), dan setelah kita dewasa kita bisa milih sendiri baju apa yg mau dipake( walaupun tetep dengan kancing atas terbuka dua..just like the seventies), tapi tetep setelah kita dewasa(baca : tua) kita juga gk selamanya bisa milih kalo tiba2 ada rambut di makanan yang kita pesen, atau kok jalanan macet, atau juga dengan siapa kehidupan kita terhubung, dan ketika itu terjadi we just have to deal, keputusan yang kita ambil gk selamanya mudah, terkadang terasa semakin sulit, tapi tetap harus diambil, karena diam sendiri pun merupakan sikap cerminan dari keputusan yang diambil, banyak pertimbangan yang diambil, bisa jadi kenangan, tiba2 inget dulu waktu jalan berdua lagi pedekate trs tiba2 benda2 di sekitar kita berubah menajadi robot dan saling berperang( transformer kali..!!!), pasti berat buat semua pihak, dan tulisan ini bukan untuk menunjukkan betapa berat keputusan yang harus saya ambil, tapi it just the way it is, ke depannya kita gk tahu bakal gimana, cuma bisa berharap yang terbaik buat semua(cross finger), karena life is what we make of it, gimana pun juga we're going to mess it up, but the good part is we have to choose how to mess it up, the key is keep trying, keep your chin up, and smile, although your life seems pretty much f*cked up but i promise you there's always so much to smile about

dedicated  to Marilyn Monroe for being such an inspiration this morning

 Widih pasti yang baca gk nyangka kan..ini ada satu lagi kalo ini terinspirasi dai Julia Roberts di Eat, Pray, Love ditulis 1 Agustus 2011

''A friend took me to the most amazing place the other day. It's called the Augusteum. Octavian Augustus built it to house his remains. When the barbarians came they trashed it a long with everything else. The great Augustus, Rome's first true great emperor. How could he have imagined that Rome, the whole world as far as he was concerned, would be in ruins. It's one of the quietest, loneliest places in Rome. The city has grown up around it over the centuries. It feels like a precious wound, a heartbreak you won't let go of because it hurts too good. We all want things to stay the same. Settle for living in misery because we're afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Then I looked at around to this place, at the chaos it has endured - the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. And I was reassured, maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, it's just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation''  from Eat, Pray, Love

pagi ini, hari pertama di bulan Agustus dan juga bulan puasa bagi yang menjalankan, iseng buka2 internet dan menemukan kata2 di atas, sering gak sih kita merasa  kalo hidup kita itu udah well perfectly planned, kita bangun sedemikian rupa sehingga x=y dan jika x dikalikan y hasilnya menjadi xy (!@$#^!!!), but guess what, what we've built can be crush in matter of split second,  intinya cepet bgt, dan kadang tidak terduga, we are not yet prepared for it, and just like the ruins, it leaves a mark in our lives, a hurt that goes so deep u just wont let go, but i do belive that our heart grows a little big bigger everytime it got the s**t beaten out of you ( bukan pembengkakan liver ), and that ruins will occupy only a small space on your heart if you let it expand, we can build anykind of things around it, and someday the ruins only gonna be a milestone, a simple reminder to things that you should avoid in the future( things you probably gonna do anyway cause you are a stubborn man).

 3 dulu ya..kapan2 kita nostalgia lagi

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